Why the hell do people really think the silent treatment accomplishes anything other than pissing the other person off? Cause that's what it's doing to me right now.
I made a friend very angry. I realize that. And I'm sorry that I did it. But I can't go back and change it. I can't fix it. I can only apologize. And I have. But he is refusing to even accept my apology. Let alone talk to me AT ALL. It's frustrating, because I'm not sure how the future is going to play out. And I seriously hate that. I hate that I pissed him off. I hate that I didn't even realize I was doing it. And I REALLY hate that he won't even fucking talk to me about it.
Look, I'm human. I make mistakes. You do too. But if we hold grudges and constantly have negative feelings about things, life will always be negative and stressed. I've apologized. I've explained (to the best of my ability). I admit that I'm wrong. I don't know what else to say. I don't know how to make you see just how fucking sorry I am.
I know he probably won't even read this. He just doesn't care enough to. He's so pissed off all he's seeing is red.
Honestly, I feel kinda bad for him. He is such an amazing person (who talked me down from suicide!), and he deserves to be happy. I hope he finds it. I just wish I wasn't getting left behind. I want to see him happy. I know he can find it. I just hope he finds it soon.
Ok, I need to get off the comp and go actually accomplish something.
LATER TATER
LYNZ
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