Thankful Tuesday

Today is a hard day to find something to be thankful for.  Yesterday was a really rough day, and it's hitting me hard still today.  But you know what, I can do this.  I will be fine.  Just gotta remember that what other people think of me doesn't define me. What matters is how I see myself, how I behave, and how I treat others.  So I am DETURMINED to just keep my head up and keep moving.

 

Anyway, this morning I am thankful for my beautiful little girls. Desiree is 6, and Ivy is 11, and they are both so beautiful and smart.  Ivy is already smarter than me, haha.  And Desiree grows every single day. She's going to be smart too, I can feel it.  They are amazing. They are always there for me when I just feel like curling up in a ball for a while. They keep me on my toes, always up to something new and exciting.  And they always make me smile with their silly jokes.  I love my littles something fierce.  They are my world, and I wouldn't be the person I am today without them.

 

I am also thankful for my husband. He is an amazing man that is always there for me too.  In fact, he usually understands what's wrong before even I do, heh.  He works a job he hates to keep a roof over our head and food in our stomachs.  He is a wonderful father, and a wonderful husband, and I am SO thankful that he is in my life.  SO SO thankful.

 

I am thankful for my friends, who are always there for me too.  I know I can be difficult sometimes (BP and PTSD tend to do that) but they shake it off and forgive me and stick by my side, and that's amazing to me.  I know I've lost some friends recently, over stuff I didn't even realize I was doing. I just hope he can forgive me in the future, but I guess we will find out. I mean, I will be ok if he doesn't, but I HATE having someone be so upset with me.  My other friends though, they are AMAZING and patient and always there for me. They help keep me grounded when my head is in the cloud or my heart is heavy.  I LOVE my friends with everything I have.

 

I am thankful to still be alive.  After the car accident, the BP, the PTSD, and the MS some days it's amazing to me that I'm still here.  There have been so many times where I thought I wouldn't be, and then I woke up the next morning refreshed and renewed and ready to take on the new day.  That is amazing to me, and I am SO thankful for it.

 

I am thankful that I finally found the courage to get help with things that I was fighting with.  I know it's a path to being a better person, and I am BOUND and DETURMINED to be better.  My family, my friends, and I all deserve me to be better.

 

So anyway, today I don't have a LOT of things planned, but there are a few.  Going to sort through some boxes and totes to try to find a few things.  Gonna play some Guild Wars.  And gonna chat with some friends.  I think it's going to be a good day.  Or rather, I'm determined to make it a good day.  Darnit, I deserve it!  Just sayin, lol.

 

Now, gonna share one of the videos for a song I LOVE.

 

 

"My baby's already got all my love"

 

I love this song. Like, A LOT!

 

Enjoy, lol.

 

Hope you have a good day

LATER TATER!

LYNZ