Fierce Friday

Today the fierce is EMOTIONS.

 

I have some things I need to say, but I can't say them in person. I'm not going to use names, but I'm sure the people this is about would know it's about them if they read it.  And I have no regrets for anything I'm going to post.  Just read it with a grain of salt and an open mind.

 

 

To the person who thinks they know me:

How dare you!  You talk about me like I'm the only one at fault. But you've made just as many mistakes as I have.  You talk to me like I'm a horrible person, but I'm only human. I make mistakes. I fail and I fall, but there's something you need to remember - I AM STRONGER THAN YOU THINK.  I know I've fucked up. I know I've done things I shouldn't have done.  I've made more mistakes than I care to admit.  But treating me like dirt is not kool. Calling me a horrendously toxic person is just rude and hurtful.  I'm not sure what's going on in your life that makes you believe that it's ok to treat someone like that, but I feel bad for you.  I am getting help.  I am on the path to becoming the best person I can become.  I am trying, as hard as I know how to try.  I am doing my best, and if that's not enough for you, then fuck off.  I refuse to try to fit your idea of the perfect me.  I am finally starting to be happy with myself. I just hope you can find the same peace, because right now it seems like all you see is the negative things in your life, and that is sad.  If you would learn to cheer up and find the good things maybe you're life would work out better for you. But until then, good riddance.  I don't need your negativity in my life.

 

To the people who are always there for me:

You are an amazing friend. You are there for me through the good AND the bad. You don't judge me, and you don't put me down.  You don't expect me to be something that I'm not. You just accept me for who I am, and I am so blessed to have you in my life.  I'm not sure where I would be without your amazing support.  I know I make mistakes. I know I fuck up.  I know I am not perfect.  But I am SO thankful that you believe in me. I am SO thankful that you see the best in me, even when I can't see it myself.  I am SO thankful that you are always there to let me curl up and cry on your shoulder, even if it's just online because you are so far away.  And even if you are close, sometimes we just can't find the time to see each other, but you are still there for me, and that means the world to me!  So thank you. Thank you so VERY much!

 

To my amazing children:

You keep me on my toes. You always keep me in a state of wonder watching you grow up and learn and become such wonderful little women.  My life is complete because you are in my life.  I only hope that you know that I am always here for you, no matter what happens in your life.  I won't judge you for making mistakes, because I make mistakes too.  I know you are always growing and learning, and you will learn from your mistakes just as much as your victories.  I love you so very very much!  Never forget that, ever!

 

This is to myself:

This song fits pretty well.

I'm not talking to you

I'm talking to my own reflection

 

 

I am doing my best.

I am being the best I know how to be

I know I fail

I know I fall

I know I can do better

and I'm always striving to

 

Mirror mirror on the wall

WHO ASKED YOU?

I know I am enough

 

LYNZ