What is ''Normal'' anyway?

With my MS, that's a question I often ask myself.

What is "normal"

What does it mean to be "normal"

Sometimes that is a really difficult question to answer, isn't it?  Because to some people, it's size 1, perfect boobs and butt, and being able to go 24 hours a day with very little sleep.  To others, it's just being able to make it through the day and do the things that you NEED to do.  That, dear friends, is where I am at.  I just want to be able to do what I need to do without having to fight through it every single day.  To be able to wake up in the morning without being in pain.  I want to be able to walk for more than a few steps without needing a cane at 31. 

Now, don't get me wrong, I know there are people out there that are in FAR worse conditions than I am.  People fighting for their lives every single day.  I try to remember that when I am having a bad day.  I try to remember how blessed I am, and how good things really are.

I have amazing friends.

I have a wonderful family.

I still have my life.

I won't die from this.

I still live, every day.

And I try to live to the fullest.

I just wish it were a little easier to do sometimes.

Crazy life is crazy

The last little while has been CRAZY.  Lots of appointments.  Hubby had to work 7 day work weeks for over a month.  My youngest has been doing OK in school, but my oldest has been struggling.  So we've had to really focus and work on bringing her grades up.  We only have a few more days to do it too!  So we are kinda having to rush through and get things done.  School is over May 20th!  So that's as long as she has.  So yeah, fun.

My oldest has been doing better mentally at least.  Her meds seem to be working.  Her depression and anxiety are getting considerably better.  I hate that she has to deal with all that jazz.  At least I knew what to do when I found out, and she's been getting the help she needs.  Med appointments with an amazing youth psychologist.  Therapy with an amazing therapist (the one who diagnosed my PTSD).  And being able to talk about anything she needs to talk about without being judged.  (She didn't believe that would happen just a few short months ago).  

My hubby has to work today.  Should only be half a day, so hopefully that works out.  And I need to focus on cleaning the house.  My friend Heather is going to come over Tuesday!  Been a while since I've gotten to hang out with her!  So that makes me super happy, hehe.

I've been a co-owner in  a help group on Facebook.  And it's been an amazing help.  Being able to help others, and talk about things I need to talk about, has been so amazing.  If anybody needs some help with mental stuff, let me know.  I can add you to it. .

Ok, time to get hubby up and get this day started.

Sorry I haven't posted in a while.  Crazy life is crazy.

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Hope everyone has an awesome day!

Rough days are rough

Today has been a very rough day.

I got a call this morning letting me know that Hubby's grandma passed away last night. :( 

Now, don't get me wrong, I didn't really know her all that well.  I'd only met her like twice.  But with how empathetic I am, it hit me - and it hit HARD.

I've spent a good couple hours crying off and on all day.

And to make things even better, My MS has been acting up pretty bad.  I've been stumbling all day long, even though there's nothing to stumble over.  So frustrating.

Sorry I haven't been posting all that much.  Just been STUPID busy.

My disability hearing is finally scheduled, and we are just over a month away from it.  It's April 14. EEK!  Got a lot of things to get together between here and there.  I just hope it works out, cause I am so tired of fighting.

I think with the MS diagnosis and my Neurologist backing me up, and the PTSD and Bipolar disorder and my mental health team backing me up, it SHOULDN'T be that difficult.  But they are calling in the idiot doctor that said I wasn't disabled over a year ago (and things have only gotten worse since then) so he doesn't know the whole story.  Just, ugh.  Bundle of nerves over here.

At least Hubby will be able to take off so he can be there with me. 

I have an appointment Wednesday with my lawyer.  Gonna go over what to expect and all that jazz. I totally trust the law group I hired.  They handled my car accident case that happened a few years back, and they even took a cut in their pay to make sure we got a good settlement out of the whole thing.  And the Woman in charge (Emily) is pretty darn awesome.  SOO, yeah.  That's happened.

Anyway, i'm gonan go take a good hot bath and try to get a good nights sleep.

LATER TATER
LYNZ