Saturday adventures

Today is Saturday. It's weird, cause it's felt like Sunday since Friday, haha. Probably cause Ruben had off Thursday and Friday. But whatever. I'm good with that. Tonight I have to go to bed EARLY cause we have to get up early tomorrow so he will be ready to get up early Monday. Fun fun. 

 

I was wrong when I said I had an appointment Monday.  It's not until JULY 1st, lol.  We are still gonna take hubby to work for his first day at the new job.  I know it will help put his mind at ease a little.  He's still gonna be NERVOUS, but I know he will do fine. I have faith. :)

 

Anyway, the girls have been playing outside most of the morning, and you can tell, lol. They are both covered in mud and super happy.  Just means they are gonna have to take a bath tonight. *Snaps fingers* darn, lol.  I'm so glad they have a yard to play in.  Makes me happy. and makes them happy. Gonna be a good summer, heh.

 

We also have a friend over to play some tabletop mini games.  Should be fun. :)  Just wish it wasn't "shot day" (Basically, I take my shot on Friday, and deal with the side effects all through Saturday).  I mean, it's better than it used to be, when I'd take it during the week and have to fight with appointments and goings on  with the side effects. This way, I don't really have to do a whole lot, which is a VERY good thing, heh.  The side effects SUCK!  I get a headache, and my whole body hurts like I have the flu.  I have some painkillers that help a LITTLE, but still sucks.  Could be worse though. My MS could be getting worse.  SO I just try to smile through it and keep going.

 

One of my family member (a great aunt I believe, but don't quote me on that one) is going to make some copies of an adult coloring page and send them to me!  I am so excited. I've been coloring a LOT lately, and the pages that she's going to send me are BEAUTIFUL!  I still need to withdraw the money I have in gofundme so I can buy the adult coloring book I want, but for now I have a handful of adult pages to color, so I'm good, lol.

 

Anyway, might write some more later, but for now we're gonna go play games.

 

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Fierce Friday

Today has been a bit fierce emotionally.  A lot has happened this week, and I'm exhausted, but happy.   A LOT is coming up too, and a lot of big changes.

 

Today we were supposed to have a friend over to play games all day, but Ruben also wanted to have more painting done on the models he's doing for him.  It ended up he didn't come over cause he had something else come up, so it will give hubby time to get his painting done.  We are planning on getting up early tomorrow (long as I actually don't sleep through my alarm like today) and we are going to get some work done around the house too. 

 

Then Monday is Hubby's first day at his new job! I'm super excited for him!  He's still nervous as hell, but I know he will do just fine!  I have faith, heh.  He's going to see if his brother will take him out and show him the ropes of driving the truck, so that should help a little.  Guess we will see what happens though, lol.  And we found out about how much he should be making a month, and we are looking at almost 600 a month more!  That, plus all the benefits should be HUGE for us!  We will know for sure what's going on Monday though, so *Fingers crossed*.

 

I also have my neurologist appointment Monday.  HOPEFULLY I can actually get her to fill out the handicap placard thing so I can finally have it. That will be HUGE for me on my bad days to be able to pack closer to the door when I go out.  SO I'm going to do whatever I have to so that can get done.

 

Tuesday we have our K-12 start up success meeting thing.  So that should be interesting. I've got to find their birth certificates though, cause if I don't find it soon they won't be able to be accepted.  And if they aren't accepted, then I'm not sure what I would do!  SOO, gotta focus on that.

 

Wednesday and Thursday hubby can take himself to work and the girls and I can stay around the house and get some stuff done around here.  Still got a LOT to get done. I want to make sure we are completely finished before time for school to start.

 

Then Friday I have to take Ruben because I have a Red Rock Therapy appointment.  Still a little nervous about it, but I know it will be a good thing.  There's a lot that we need to figure out and work though, and having an outside perspective will be a good thing indeed.

 

And that's my week coming up.  Lots going on, but I know it will be good.

 

Hope everyone had an awesome day

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Way Back Wednesday and Throwback Thursday

Gonna combine these into one post, since they are both basically the same thing, lol.

 

Today I'm going to focus on things that have happened to me in my life that I am SUPER thankful for.  I've been through a lot, especially since I got married, and I want to say thank you to some people for all the things the did for us while we were going through such a difficult time.

 

First, I'd like to say thank you to my mom and dad.  I was pregnant when we got married, and was SUPER close to delivering when we were evicted from the house we were in.  We had like 3 days to get EVERYTHING out of the house (including the stuff that his parents had left behind) and it was in the heat of summer. My parents helped us move everything out and into a storage shed. And then they set up a bed in the kitchen so we could stay with them until I delivered.  They were there for us in a time when everything seemed to be falling apart around us, and I am SO blessed to have them in my life.  They kept a roof over our head when we were afraid we weren't going to have anywhere to go. So thank you Mom and Dad!

 

Then I'd like to say thank you to my friends Ashley and Tony. We got evicted, and had to move, but had no real income or ability to get our own place.  They let us live in their living room on the couches, with my oldest sleeping in her pack and play. They kept a roof over our head and food in our stomachs when we were at such a low point in our lives, and that means the world to me because they didn't HAVE to do it. They WANTED to, and that means a lot to me!

 

Then I'd like to thank the members of my family, and my in-laws.  They have provided clothes for my daughters when we couldn't afford to get them anything new.  And they've helped us with class pictures, school supplies, and other school necessities.  So thank you all so very much for everything you've done for the girls. We are so very thankful.

 

I'd like to thank my mom and dad for taking the girls one week a year. The girls love it, and they always do something fun and exciting, which makes me happy that the girls are getting to have those experiences.  That, and it gives my husband and I a week to celebrate our anniversary, because it almost always happens around that time.  So that is super special too.  So thank you so much Mom and Dad.  It means a lot to us.

 

I want to say thank you to my husband. He worked nights at a hotel for almost 9 years, even though he HATED it, and it was super hard to be apart for that time.  He did what he needed to do to keep a roof over our heads, food in our stomachs, and clothes on our back.  He has always been there for us, even when he was having such a hard time, and I am so blessed that I found such an amazing man to be my husband for the rest of my life.  I honestly feel like I would be nothing if not for his love.  I just hope he knows how much I appreciate everything he has done for us!

 

I want to thank my friends - Heather, Daniel, and James.  You guys have been there for me at some of my lowest points in my life and you brought me back from the brink of doing something terrible to those around me.  You keep me sane, and alive, and that is HUGE.  I never really had friends like that  (at least not for years - I did have Cassie, Ashley, and Misty when I was in high school and just after, but I don't get to see them very often anymore).  So thank you for putting up with me when I get that way, and for being willing to do whatever it took/ takes to keep me alive.  And I want to thank my husband for the same thing. He talks me down when I'm having a bad day, and lets me cry on his shoulder when all I want to do is curl up and cry.  And that means so very much to me. You all do!  Thank you!

 

I want to thank my daughters.  They have been such strong little souls when everything has happened in our lives.  Like having to move out of the house we were in when Desiree was born, having to put up with the pest control at the apartment (and all the BS they put us through) and moving from the apartment to the house we are in now. They stay strong, and they are so helpful, and that means the world to me because they take time out of being a kid to do what needs to be done.  And that is HUGE to me.  HUGE!

 

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Ok, I think that's all the thank you I have for things that happened in the past.  I seriously have such a blessed life because of everyone who has done so very much for us.

 

Today we've got a few things going on.  Hubby gets his next to last paycheck from his old job today, and we are gonna pick up a few things at Walmart.  He is going out to fill out the paperwork for the new job he starts Monday (which I am SO excited for!).  And then we are gonna spend some time together around the house. It's gonna be a great day!

 

Anyway, I hope everyone has an awesome day

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Thankful Tuesday

THANKFUL TUESDAY

 

Today I am thankful that my daughters love to play outside as much as they do. It's good for them, and helps run off some of their crazy energy.

 

Today I am thankful for how hard my husband works, even at a job that he HATES, to keep food in our stomachs, clothes on our backs, and a roof over our head.

 

Today I am thankful for my medication, because without it I just know I would get worse, and I don't want to do that for darn sure.

 

Today I am thankful for the MS Cooling program. I got a phone call today that I was approved, so I will be getting my cooling vest sometime in the next few weeks!  That will make this summer SO much better!

 

Today I am thankful for one of my friends who helped me buy some of the medicine I take on shot day for my migraines.  Seriously such a huge help, and I am so thankful for her.

 

Today I am thankful for my cat and the fact that he loves to cuddle with me while I take a nap. I always get to sleep faster, and sleep better, when he does that.

 

Today I am thankful for my ability to talk to and help my friends.  Sometimes all they need is someone to listen, and I am glad to do it for them.

 

Today I am thankful for my ability to still do some of the things I love - Like write, color, draw, and play the violin and piano.  There are a lot of things that I can't do now because of the MS, but I am thankful for the things I CAN do.

 

Today I am thankful for summer vacation.  I have my girlies with me all day, and it helps with my loneliness, and they always keep me on my toes. I love those little girlies.

 

Today I am thankful for Red Rock.  Being able to go to the medication clinic and get my medicine for free, and to get talk therapy for free, makes a HUGE difference in my life.

 

Today I am thankful for my caseworker getting me a talk therapist. I think it will be good to have someone that I can talk to about everything that's going on without having to worry about being judged. Yes, I can talk to my husband, but sometimes it's hard for him to listen to me.

 

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Today was an up and down day.  My moods swung like crazy, but that's ok.  I got to see my friends, got to talk to my husband, and got to hang out with my kids.  I can't really complain all that much, lol. Bout to fix dinner, then take a shower and play Castlevania (Or however it's spelled, lol) with hubby.  Gonna be a good end to the day. 

 

Hope everyone had an awesome day

LATER TATER

LYNZ

Thinking of stuffs to do this summer

It being the first day of summer and all, I thought I'd sit down and write a list of things to do this summer with my girlies.  We need to find a bunch of stuff to do inside during the day since I can't do the heat with my MS, and we need to find stuff to do that doesn't require a whole lot of prep, or being around a whole bunch of people.

SOO, I've got some stuff in mind.

 

First, I think we are going to make some really pretty pet rocks.  Gonna go for a walk down by the water canal and pick up some rocks one morning, and then come home and paint them up.  I think the girls would have a blast doing that, and it would let them be creative.

 

Gonna do a "stained window" art project.  Gonna use some tissue paper and some aluminum foil to make really pretty decorations for our windows.  At least a couple of the smaller ones. That way we can block the sun out when it starts to get too hot around the house since we don't have central heat and air anymore.  I think it would be a really pretty way to handle the situation

 

Then I think I'm going to do a few painting projects with the girls.  Gonna buy some poster boards and some cheap paint and let them go at it.  Probably out on the back deck.  Let them paint up whatever they want to paint, and then we can hang them in their bedroom for a while.

 

Gonna work on our "Homeschool" project ideas.  Gonna sit down with the girls and talk about things they'd like to do when we start homeschooling.  I know they've got a LOT of ideas, and I want to get them all in a binder so they are easy to find once we do get started.

 

I think I'm going to start teaching the girls how to play the violin. At least my oldest. I think she would enjoy it, and it would make me SUPER happy to have someone else love the thing that I've been in love with for SO MANY YEARS, lol.  And depending on how much she likes it, we might try to write some music together. And eventually I could buy her her own violin and we could write duets to perform for people.  I think that would be fun

 

Gonna do a pretty photo shoot with the girls this summer too.  While their daddy is at work, we will dress up and go outside and take some pictures that we can share with their old teachers, and with family and friends.  I know they'd love it (They are such little hams) and I enjoy taking pictures too, so that would be fun for me as well.

 

Then I think we are gonna do a few fun science experiments.  The baking soda and vinegar with some food coloring.  Gonna make the cloud dough (basically it's ivory soup in the microwave - once we replace the microwave). Gonna teach them how to make mystery matter (cornstarch and water mixed up just right so it's a solid when you're poking at it and liquid when you just let it sit) and I'm sure I will find some other stuff to do. They always like to experiment, and that will be something to do that actually teaches them something too.

 

We are going to create journals, and have them put something in them every day.  Be it writing, or drawing, or stuff they find around the yard. It's going to be our own version of an art journal.  I think it would be good for them, because they both need to write better, and that would be a good way for them to do it with something they enjoy.

 

If you guys have any other ideas or webpages that you can recommend, please send them my way. We are always looking for new stuff to do.

 

hope everyone had an awesome day
LATER TATER
LYNZ

Memorial Monday

I think I've decided to change things up.  There are some days where I just don't have anything to post on the subject I originally set out, so I'm just going to post something every day. 

 

Today is Memorial Monday - Memorial Day 2015

 

Today is a day we remember all who have given their lives in service for this country. A day where we are SO thankful for all who have given their lives so we can have the independence we have today.  So many have given their lives, past and present, and it seems they are forgotten every other day of the year.  So I say to you, make sure to thank all the past and present members of our military. There are out there, on the frontlines, defending this great nation, every single day.  Because of them you can have your BBQ and lake/ pool day.  Because of them you can vote.  Because of them you can walk the streets and not have to worry about certain things happening.  They are our heroes, and I am so very thankful for each and every one of them.

 

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I saw a picture earlier that hit home with me.  My oldest daughter has been fighting depression and anxiety the last couple months.  A lot of it was brought on by her school and classmates, but there were some other things that brought it on too.  I had hoped that she would be able to get over it on her own, but when she didn't I did not hesitate to do what needed to be done to get her the help that she so desperately needed.  Since getting her help, she has been happier and healthier. And for that, I am so thankful!

 



 

I know that she will be happier and healthier because of the sacrifice I have made to make sure she gets the help she needs.  She has talk therapy, and takes medication, and both work together to help her be the wonderful young adult that she deserves to be.

 

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There is SO MUCH going on right now.  Thursday is Ivy's therapy, and payday.  Friday is her med appointment. Monday is my neurologist appointment.  Tuesday is our start up success appointment for K-12.  Next Friday is my therapy appointment, then the 10th is my med appointment.  And sometime in all that I have to find the paperwork I need for K-12 (and SOON).  I hope my husband can help me find it tonight so we can get it faxed off tomorrow.  Without it they will be dropped from the program and I will have to find something else to do with them for homeschool.  So it is SUPER important!

 

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My husband starts his new job June 1st!  I am SO excited for him!  He will be getting better pay, doing something he actually enjoys (Driving and manual labor).  It has benefits (paid vacation, health insurance, dental insurance, eye coverage, and sick days - which he has NONE of at his current job).  And he will be working for the same company his brother works for, which I think will be kinda kool.  He is still NERVOUS as hell, but I know once he gets started he will do just fine. :)  I have faith in him. Heck, he has put up with his current job, which he HATES, for this long. I'm pretty sure he can put up with something like his new job for just as long at least, lol.

 

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I've got a couple errands to run this afternoon. Gotta pick up some milk, put gas in the car, and pick up another thing or two.  At least it's not that bad outside today.  Till we can get the AC in the car fixed I have to be super careful about how long I'm out in the heat. Stupid MS and heat do NOT mix at all. 

 

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Anyway, Hope everyone has an awesome Memorial Day!

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Switching it up a little

Instead of Super Saturday and Silly Sunday I'm going to do Silly Saturday and Super Sunday.  I'm in the mood for a good laugh today, so that's what I'm gonna do, lol.

 

This song cracks me up, and the video is just as funny to me.

 

 

This song is pretty cute too.  This is something that I never really worried about when I was in school.  I may not have been a jock or cheerleader, but I was kool in my own right with the drama nerds, lol. And I love this girls version.

 

 

This song cracks me up too for some reason.

 

 

This song cracks me up too.  I think it's funny. I've known people like this before.

 

 

This looks like something that would be HYSTERICAL between two friends. It's a blindfold makeup challenge, where one girl is blindfolded and puts makeup on the other. lol.

 



Anyway, That's my laughs for today.

Hope everyone had an awesome day
LATER TATER
LYNZ

Journal Prompts post 4

I'm gonna finish up the journal prompts I've already posted. Don't worry, I still have a TON more that I can do, lol

 

The questions for today are:

Who is someone you miss?

What is something someone else has that you envy? Describe it and your feelings about it.

What is a book, movie, song, or television program that has influenced you, and how?

What is a mistake people often make about you?

What's something you disagree with about the way you were raised?

What's your favorite: season, color, place, or food? Describe it.

WHO IS SOMEONE YOU MISS?

I honestly have a lot of people that I miss.  Most of my real friends and family (not saying my friends up here don't count, just so you know) live in other states. Misty is in Colorado, Cassie, Ashley, mom and dad are in Fort Smith, My sister is in Hot springs.  My tai tai Cynthia Lee lives in Alabama now I believe. Spread out all over the place, and I miss all of them.  And people that have passed away I miss like CRAZY. Like Sifu Darrel Lee, who passed away last year. My grandfather, who passed away a few years ago.  My grandmother in law who just passed away this year.  So many people, and I miss them all so much! 

 

WHAT IS SOMETHING SOMEONE ELSE HAS THAT YOU ENVY? DESCRIBE IT AND YOUR FEELINGS ABOUT IT.

There isn't a lot that other people have that I envy, if I'm honest. There are things that I think would be nice, but I don't hold anything against them for having them when I don't.  Good jobs, good cars, good houses, etc.  I'm happy for them, completely. And I know we are well on our way to having the same things. :)  Hubby starts his new job June 1st, we have a new car that we are going to fix up, and we are in a house that I LOVE!  So all in all, there's nothing I envy that someone else has.

 

WHAT IS A BOOK, MOVIE, SONG, OR TELEVISION PROGRAM THAT HAS INFLUENCED YOU, AND HOW?

Hmmm. This one is an interesting one.  I've read a lot of books in my life, and a lot of them were fiction. Mind you, books like the Wrinkle in Time books were interesting, but as far as influencing me, I really don't know.  There was a book I read when I was a teenager, called "I never promised you a rose garden" that I love. It is about a girl in a mental institution fighting with mental health issues.  I have been fighting with mine for a long time, but never really told anybody about it until last year.  It kinda helped me realize that it's ok to not be ok sometimes.  That it's better to ask for help than to hold it in. And it's always a good idea to be open and honest about how you're feeling (mind you, most of that I didn't come to terms with until end of last year, but still)  So yeah, I think that would be one that has influenced me the most.  Now movies - Probably Girl Interrupted - for the same reasons, lol.  Song - True Colors is one that I've always loved, as well as Coming Undone from Korn.  There are more, I know there are, but I can't think of them right now.  And television program is a little hard.  I don't really know of any television programs that have influenced me that much. Maybe clean house, or trading spaces, for giving me ideas about stuff to do around the house.  IDK though.  *Shrug*

 

WHAT IS A MISTAKE PEOPLE OFTEN MAKE ABOUT YOU?

People often think I am shy, or that I don't like them. When in reality, I just don't do confrontations very well, and I suck at making friends.  I think that's why I have so few real friends.  When someone new meets me, they often think I'm withdrawn and cold.  And it's not that at all. It's more I just don't know what to say or do when I meet new people.  Ya know?  IDK, that's all I've got on that one.

 

WHAT'S SOMETHING YOU DISAGREE WITH ABOUT THE WAY YOU WERE RAISED?

OOOh, this one is a tough one for sure.  Honestly, there are very few things in my life that I regret, or I disagree with, when it comes to the way I was raised.  I think the only thing I disagree with is when I started cutting and my mom asked me if I wanted therapy instead of just making me go.  I think things would have been a lot different if I'd gone to therapy for that a HECK of a lot sooner.  Does that make any sense?  I honestly think that's the only thing that I would have changed. 

 

WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE: SEASON, COLOR, PLACE, OR FOOD? DESCRIBE IT.

SEASON:  My favorite season is Fall. I love when the trees start changing colors, and the temp starts to drop. I love wearing my comfy sweaters and being able to be outside more - where any other season I really can't anymore because of my MS and my allergies, lol.

COLOR:  My favorite colors are Black, Blood Red, and Royal Purple. I like Hot Pink, Jade, Coral, and Topaz too though.

PLACE: My favorite place - if I had to choose one - is downtown OKC or the Arkansas Riverfront park in Fort Smith.  Downtown OKC has the water canal, and lots of little places to explore down the streets of the city, and I love it down there. And the Riverfront Park is beautiful - laying right alongside the Arkansas River.  It's got a walking trail, an outdoor stage, and a couple buildings that are great for having parties or get-togethers.  Seriously beautiful.

FOOD: My favorite food has always been Chicken Pot Pie with Mashed Potatoes, and Corn.  LOVE LOVE LOVE!  It's such comfort food for me. :)

 

And that's it for today guys.  I might try to post a Super Saturday post in a bit though. We will see.

 

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Journal Prompts post 3

Time for another journal prompt post

Today I'm going to do quite a few.

 

They are:

What are your views on religion?

What keeps you up at night worrying? Are your worries realistic? Is there anything you can do about them?

Do you have a philosophy of life? If so, what is it? If not, what is your method for making important decisions?

In what areas are you optimistic, and in what areas are you pessimistic?

What are your most prized possessions?

WHAT ARE YOUR VIEWS ON RELIGION

I was raised a Jehovah's Witness.  I went to the kingdom hall three time a week, went out in field service, and didn't celebrate anything but anniversaries.  It wasn't a bad upbringing, by any means.  But now that I'm older, I have a completely different view on religion.  I now believe that - as long as you believe it with everything in your being - it's true.  Be it Catholic, Baptist, or Jehovah's witness, as long as YOU believe, with every fiber in your being, that it's the truth and the way, then it is.  I'm not sure how I feel towards religion as far as I'm concerned.  I've had a lot of different things happen to me that have me questioning a lot about Religion.  And I refuse to debate about it.  It's something that I have to figure out on my own, ya know?

 

WHAT KEEPS YOU UP AT NIGHT WORRYING? ARE YOUR WORRIES REALISTIC? IS THERE ANYTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT THEM?

I worry about a little bit of everything, from finances, to keeping up with the house, to my MS/PTSD/BP.  I worry about my kids, and my husband, and my family, and my friends.  I literally worry about everything. It's something I've done the vast majority of my life. I am working on it now, on trying not to worry about every little thing.  And I'm sure I will get there eventually. Most of the worries aren't really realistic, and logically I know that. But logic goes out the window when I'm fighting the worries on a daily basis, ya know?  And the only thing that I've found that works is to talk them out, or write them out. Just to get them out of my head, ya know?

 

DO YOU HAVE A PHILOSOPHY OF LIFE? IF SO, WHAT IS IT? IF NOT, WHAT IS YOUR METHOD FOR MAKING IMPORTANT DECISIONS?

I do have a philosophy on life. I believe that as long as you try your best, and do what is right (and you know what's right and wrong) then you are on the right path.  Sometimes choices are difficult, but as long as you do what is right and do the best you can, then you should be proud of yourself for that.  I do a lot of thinking about choices and decisions in my life. I will go over and over and over the question, sometimes so many times that those around me get frustrated at me for it.  But that's the way I handle important decisions, ya know?  I have to think about it long and hard to make sure that I'm making the right choice for the question. Does that make sense?  IDK, but that's the way I handle things like that.

 

IN WHAT AREAS ARE YOU OPTIMISTIC, AND IN WHAT AREAS ARE YOU PESSIMISTIC?

I am optimistic in a lot of areas of my life.  I always try to believe that as long as we work as hard as we can, what is meant to be will happen.  As long as you do the best we can all the time, and we never give up, life will work out.  At least I TRY to be that way.  Most of the time I can accomplish it, but sometimes it falls in the other end of things.  I get super pessimistic sometimes about things that are going on, constantly worrying about what is going to happen or how we are going to make things work.  Thankfully, my husband is a HUGE help in that area. He has a way of putting my mind at ease when I can't seem to catch my breath.

 

WHAT ARE YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSIONS?

I have a few things that are my prized possessions.  I have a doll that I've had since I was Ivy's age.  Her name is Nelly Alice, and she's my cabbage patch doll.  I have my violin, which I've had since I was in the 6th grade, and I still love to play it for my friends and family.  I have my wedding ring, which isn't some fancy smancy diamond ring - but it's a celtic knot ring - and it means the world to me because of what it stands for. And I have a giant teddy bear that my husband got me one day when I was sick - his name is Mr Bear - and he is something that I love to cuddle with while I'm falling asleep and I talk to him when I'm having a bad day and can't really talk to anybody else about it, lol. Yes, I know that's a little silly, but it is what it is.  So SHHH! lol. 

 

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That's my journal prompts for today.  Those were a little more interesting for me today.  I don't know what it is that sometimes things like that are amusing to me.

 

Comment below with YOUR answers to the questions!  I wanna hear!

Ok, I'm off for the night

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Fierce Friday

Today is Friday - YAY!  It was also my daughters last day of school, and my first meeting with the person who is going to be my therapist up at Red Rock.

 

My oldest had her 5th grade graduation today.  It was awesome, lol. She didn't get any special awards (like ones given from people outside the school) but she did get 3 awards, and that's pretty darn awesome.  She was embarrassed every time they called her name, lol. But it was a good morning.  She got her awards, and did all the rest of the graduation stuff.  And then we signed her out of school early so we could start our summer break!  I'm excited for this summer.  With hubby starting a new job it should be pretty awesome.

 

We are going to do the library, take walks, and spend a lot of time outdoors (as long as the heat doesn't get to me too bad). We are going to get a lot of work done around the house.  And we are going to make the most of the time we get together.  We've got a LOT of appointments coming up.  My therapy appointment, my oldest daughters therapy appointment, our med appointments, and my neurologist appointment.  But it's all stuff that needs to happen, so yeah.  Do what you gotta do right? lol.

 

All in all it was a pretty fierce, but awesome, day.

I met with the person who is going to be my therapist.  We talked for quite a while about what my goals with therapy, and what I wanted to accomplish.  We worked on my treatment plan, and discussed a few things. My first REAL therapy appointment is June 5th, so that will be a good thing.  I'm still nervous, but more excited to be able to go, ya know?  I think it will be a good thing.

Tonight is shot night - BOO!  So that's gonna suck. But it's also Friday night, so that will be awesome.  And it's guild missions in Guild Wars tonight (I think) so that will be fun too.  Today has been a fiercly awesome day. :)

I've been playing The Binding of Isaac: Rebirth a lot lately, and I just had an EPIC run. I got a lot of awesome pickups, and made it to Moms Heart!  That's the furthest I've ever gotten!  I might try that seed again later and see if I can actually beat it or not, lol.

Bout time to go get my hubby from work.  Then home and probably an early dinner.  Then relaxing Friday night. :)  YAY for the weekend!

Anyway, hope everyone had an awesome day
LATER TATER
LYNZ

Journal prompts post 2

Journal prompts post 2.  Doing 4 questions today.

 

WHAT'S SOMETHING YOU'RE GOOD AT? WHAT MAKES YOU GOOD AT IT?

I think I'm good at art - drawing, painting, coloring. And I think I'm good at writing too. One of these days I'll post some of the poetry I've written. And I think I'm good at it because I pour all of my heart and soul into whatever I'm doing, no matter what it is.

 

WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF OR YOUR LIFE? IS THERE A WAY FOR YOU TO CHANGE IT?

Honestly, the only thing I would change about myself or my life is what I'm already working to change. I would get better mentally, and I would take care of myself physically. The only other thing I would change is I would take away the MS, but there's no cure for it yet, so I just do what I can to keep it in check.  With the mental, I go to Red Rock for medication, and soon for therapy, and that's going to be a HUGE help.  I know I can overcome this. I just have to keep pushing through.

 

WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP LIKE WITH VARIOUS MEMBERS OF YOUR FAMILY?

The relationship with my family is complicated.  Some of my family and I get along great, and other members of my family and I don't get along at all.  It's frustrating sometimes because I want my relationships to always be good, and there's just no way to fix some of the relationships in my life.  Thankfully, the ones that matter are good.  My relationship with my mom and dad has gotten better as I've gotten older, and the relationship with my sister has too.  My in-laws and I get along, for the most part, most of the time, and that's about the best I can ask for, lol.  Other than that, the rest are just relationships. Not good, not bad, just there.  Ya know? Does that make any sense at all?  I don't know, to be honest, lol.

 

IF YOU HAVE BROTHERS OR SISTERS, HOW ARE YOU SIMILAR TO THEM OR DIFFERENT FROM THEM? WHAT ABOUT WITH YOUR FRIENDS?

My Sister and I are alike in a lot of things. We like a lot of the same movies, and music. We both have kids and loving husbands.  We both have a good group of friends.  And we like to hang out in a lot of the same places.  We are different because of a lot too though. I am tall, and she's not. I have always been skinnier and she has been more average.  I have stick straight hair, and hers is CURLY (which is a bit of an understatement, but I love her hair).  She has 3 kids, about to be 4, and I only have 2.  She's been homeschooling her kids for a few years now, and I have had mine in public school.  Just a lot of different things.

 

With my friends, that's a different story, lol.  We are all crazy different, but not in a bad way. And we have a lot in common too.  We like to play the same kinds of games, hang out at the same kinds of places, and do a lot of the same things.  I love my little group of best friends, and I wouldn't change a darn thing about any of them. They make my life complete - my friends and family. 

 

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Welp, my youngest is done with her last day of school.  Hard to believe the year is already over. Only thing we have left to do is go to her big sisters awards ceremony and clean out her sisters desk and then we are free for the summer!  I am seriously so blessed to have the most amazing little girls in the world. They keep me on my toes, and make me laugh, and I love watching them grow into such amazing strong little women! 

 

Tomorrow, after my Red Rock appointment, I need to hunt down the paperwork for the k-12 stuff.  I MAY be able to find it tonight, but I don't know. Might need hubby to help me look cause I have no clue where most of my stuff is since we moved.  EEK!  Good thing about this summer though, I can start to really hardcore clean and organize and unpack my house. :)  Gotta get the dining room completely done so I can set up our school room in there for next year.  Super excited!  I'm gonna spend the summer looking for books and stuff to do with them and all that. If you have any good resources, let me know!  I need all the help I can get, haha.

 

Anyway, gonna kill the next little while till time to get Hubby from work.  Then early dinner, and early to bed.  At least that's the plan, haha.

 

LATER TATER
LYNZ

 

Therapy

Tomorrow I meet with the therapist that is going to be in charge of my talk therapy. I'm nervous, and anxious, and all around overwhelmed because I don't know what's going to happen, if I'm going to like them, or where we will start.  I've never been really good at talking about my problems, especially to someone I don't know that well.  But at the same time, I know it will be a good thing. It will help me deal with the depression and the suicidal thoughts. It will help me deal with the random moodswings of Bipolar. And it will help me get to the bottom of a lot of the things I've been dealing with for the last few months.

 

But at the same time, I know a lot of people judge those in therapy. You either think we are crazy, or we are wasting our money, or something along those lines.

 

But let me tell you, it is NOTHING like that.  We are in therapy for our own reasons, and most of the time we don't need your approval to do what we feel is best for ourselves.  I found an article - 14 common misconceptions about therapy - that I'm going to share with you here.

 

If you question therapy at all, please take a look.  Read all the way through it.  And understand that we go to therapy because we have need for it. Not because it's something that we want to do. It's something that we NEED to do.  Trust me when I say it's not something that I would do if I didn't feel like I needed to do it.

 

14 Common Misconceptions about Therapy

 

Anyway, just wanted to share that.

Hope everyone is having a great day

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Skipping a day

Today is supposed to be Throwback Thursday, but I can't really think of a Throwback post for today. I might make it up another day, if I can think of a good throwback post.  For today though, I'm just gonna write about other stuff that's been going on in my life. Gonna share some videos, some quotes, and stuff like that. Hopefully you won't miss the throwback post, lol.

 

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This past Sunday we played DC heroes for the first time. I play a girl that can turn invisible at whim, and is good with stealth and computer stuffs.  It was fun.  We are playing again this Sunday, since the next couple we will all be busy with a bunch of stuff.  I'm excited. I'm glad that I get to spend time with friends still, even after everything that happened recently (nope, not talking about it).  I think it's going to be a ton of fun as we get higher and higher into the whole thing. 

 

Today is my youngests awards ceremony at school. Just over an hour from now.  And then they are having a party afterwards.  Good thing about that is that she doesn't have to go tomorrow.  That's a good thing, cause I have an appointment tomorrow morning, and wouldn't be able to do her awards ceremony if she had to have it tomorrow.  My oldest has hers tomorrow, but it's early enough that we can go to it and I can still go to my appointment.  It's hard to believe the school year is almost over!  This year went SO FAST!  I'm still excited though. Summer is going to be awesome, and being able to homeschool them next year is going to be fun too.  I'm sure we will have a great time.

 

Tomorrow, at my Red Rock appointment, I will be meeting the person who is going to be my talk therapist up there. I am so thankful that I can get treatment through there for free, cause I am sure I wouldn't be where I am today without them.  And I'm nervous, but excited, to have a talk therapist again.  I have a lot of things that have been going on, and I need someone to talk to about it all.  So that will be a very good thing.  Hopefully they can help me with some more coping skills and stuff like that.  I could really use them. 

 

Saturday I think my brother in law is going to take my hubby out to the pull a parts place to get some stuff for the car.  We need new brake plates, new blower fan motor, and new sensor thing for the car.  So hopefully we can get at least some of it fixed.  Thank goodness for my brother in law helping us out with that, cause we need the car up and running right, ya know?  It's frustrating to be driving in it with it still a little blah.

 

OK, I think that's all I've got for right now.  I might post another journal prompt post in a bit. IDK. Just have to see what happens, cause right now I just feel like blah.

 

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Journal prompt post 1

Gonna start with the first three today.  I think they are all good, but shouldn't be too long. SOO, the prompts for right now are:

 

•What kind of day are you having, and why?
•What's your favorite color, place, food, book, song, or movie, and why?
•What do you like to do? How does it make you feel?

 

WHAT KIND OF DAY ARE YOU HAVING AND WHY

 

Today hasn't been a bad day, but it hasn't been a good day either.  It's just been a day.  Nothing really bad or good has happened.  Took a nap this morning, which was nice - but had some WEIRD dreams while napping.  Then did lunch with Hubby. Then picked up dinner and put gas in the car. Then picked up the girls from school. Then picked hubby up from work.  Then home and started dinner.  Gonna try to get to bed early tonight - and hubby is too.  So hopefully we both wake up in a better mood tomorrow. That would be a good thing.

 

WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE COLOR, PLACE, FOOD, BOOK, SONG, OR MOVIE, AND WHY

 

I think I'm actually going to post all of them

 

My favorite colors are royal purple, blood red, and black because I love the dark rich colors.

 

My favorite place is anywhere my hubby is.  My hubby is my heart and my life, and so anywhere where he is where I am the happiest.

 

My favorite book - this is a little harder. I have a TON of favorite books. lol.  I love the His Dark Materials trilogy, The Wrinkle in Times books, The Narnia books, Alice in Wonderland books, and the Nightside Novels. And I love them all because they take you to a different world. It is always amazing to me when my imagination gets so involved in a book.

 

My favorite song (for now at least) is Fight Song.  That song is me in a song. At least I feel like it's me in a song. "I've still got a lot of fight left in me"

 

My favorite movie is Girl Interrupted. - With everything that has happened to me in my life, that movie always made me feel like I wasn't alone; that there were other people out there dealing with depression, and other mental illness.

 

WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?  HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL?

 

I love to read because it is always a good escape from the world around me for a while.  I love to write because it lets me get all the thoughts rambling around in my head out.  I love to draw because it lets me put the beauty I see in my mind out for the world to see. I love to be out in nature because that's one of the few places where I truly feel at peace.  I love to go to the zoo with my daughters and watch them see all the animals.  And I love hanging out with my family - even if it's just around the house playing games and watching movies.

 

And it all makes me feel happy.  And that's something that I long for on a day to day basis, you know?

 

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And that's my first three questions.

Why don't YOU go write about them too?

 

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Journal Prompts

I'm going to start posting other things besides my daily stuff.  I found a list of journal prompts, and I'm going to use those for a while.  These are the ones I'm going to start with.  Take a look. I'll post the first one in just a few minutes.  Probably going to do a few of them at a time, at least some of the easier ones.  So make sure to read the whole thing, k?

 

Journal prompts - all about you

• What kind of day are you having, and why?
• What's your favorite color, place, food, book, song, or movie, and why?
• What do you like to do? How does it make you feel?
• Where are you happiest? Describe that place.
• What's something you're good at? What makes you good at it?
• What would you change about yourself or your life? Is there a way for you to change it?
• What is your relationship like with various members of your family?
• If you have brothers or sisters, how are you similar to them or different from them? What about with your friends?
• What are your views on religion?
• What keeps you up at night worrying? Are your worries realistic? Is there anything you can do about them?
• Do you have a philosophy of life? If so, what is it? If not, what is your method for making important decisions?
• In what areas are you optimistic, and in what areas are you pessimistic?
• What are your most prized possessions?
• Who is someone you miss?
• What is something someone else has that you envy? Describe it and your feelings about it.
• What is a book, movie, song, or television program that has influenced you, and how?
• What is a mistake people often make about you?
• What's something you disagree with about the way you were raised?
• What's your favorite: season, color, place, or food? Describe it.

So What Wednesday

SO WHAT WEDNESDAY

 

SO WHAT

if I took a 2 hour nap this morning. I was tired darnit.  Had some crazy dreams though, lol.  So it was interesting.

 

SO WHAT

if I haven't picked up the living room yet.  I've still got time

 

SO WHAT

if I picked up a SUPER easy dinner for tonight. It sounded good, and it being easy was just the icing on the cake.

 

SO WHAT

if I haven't made the second batch of cake yet. I can do that tonight too.

 

SO WHAT

if I wish it would stay this temp all year long. It's beautiful, and I love sitting around in my hoodie.

 

SO WHAT

if I have to go back to Red Rock this Friday.  Gonna meet with my caseworker and go over my treatment plan, and meet with the person who is going to become my talk therapist. So it's a good thing.

 

SO WHAT

if I can't wait for this week to get over.  It's the end of school, and next week Hubby starts his new job!  It's going to be awesome!

 

SO WHAT

if I'm already ready for bed.  This has been a long day, my pain is spiking, and I just want to sleep.

 

What are YOUR so whats for today?

 

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I absolutely LOVE this song!  So beautiful, and such a good message.  Take a listen if you haven't yet.  Trust me when I say it may be my song of the summer, lol.

 

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Tomorrow morning my youngest has her awards ceremony at school, and a party.  That way Friday, when the other kids are having their awards ceremonies, they won't have to miss all the fun.  Then Friday morning is the awards ceremony for my oldest.  And then we are FREE!  lol.  Summer is going to be awesome.  Hubby is getting a new job, we will have time to go do stuff, like the library and maybe the zoo and water park.  We will be able to hang out and do stuff together on the weekends with hubby. It's just going to be awesome.  I'm ready.

 

In the next day or two I've gotta finish finding all the information for the girls K-12 school.  That way we can finish their enrollment for homeschool next year.  I'm excited at the prospect of homeschooling. We are going to set up the dining room for classwork, and we will be able to do things on our own schedule. If they don't get something, we can take the extra time to do it till they get it.  We will be able to read together, do art projects together, do science experiments together, and all kinds of other fun stuff. I'm super excited.

 

Anyway, that's my post for today.

 

Don't forget to comment with YOUR  So What's for today.

 

LATER TATER

LYNZ

Just wanting to feel "Normal" again

This is something that I'm sure everyone with some kind of illness - be it chronic physical illness, or mental illness - have felt at some point or another.

 

Today has been a bad Bipolar day.  It's been a day where I've gone through every emotion in the book, multiple times.  I've been happy, angry, frustrated, depressed, silly, and sad.  I've dealt with it all today. These days don't happen as often as they used to, thanks to my medication, but when they do the are overwhelming. It's hard to find the words I need to say to explain it to people who have never dealt with it in their whole lives.  It is extremely difficult to explain that you are angry at NOTHING, that EVERYTHING Is setting you off and making you cry. That you just want to punch the wall, or curl up in a ball and cry for hours on end. That you just need someone to give you a hug and tell you that they are there for you and that it's ok to feel the way you feel.

 

I've never liked not having control of my emotions. I've dealt with it for the vast majority of my life. I spent so many years just hiding it from everyone because I felt broken.  I felt like if I told anybody I would be looked down on and judged.  I hid in alcohol, drugs, and cutting. And while I've overcome the vast majority of my addictions, there are still days (Like today) where I just want to go back to it to feel something other than overwhelmed.  I know better. Believe me. But at the same time the urge is still there. I fight it hard. I have reasons to now. I have a beautiful family - with two amazing little girls and a loving husband. I have amazing friends who deserve a clean and sober me.  And I finally feel worth it.

 

The best way to explain how it feels on a day like today is like I'm constantly walking on egg shells, and doing my best not to shatter what little sanity I cling so desperately to.  I feel like no matter what I do or say it's never going to be enough.  I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster going at top speed and have no way to get off, ever.  It is overwhelming, and exhausting, and frustrating.  It's something that I live with, and I'm finally starting to realize that it's OK to feel this way.  That it's nothing I can control. That it's something I have to learn to actually live life with. 

 

I start talk therapy soon.  I'm already on a TON of medication (not just for that, but for the MS and PTSD too).  I journal. I draw. I paint.  I try to find something to let it all out.  I think the talk therapy will be a good thing, and hopefully it will help me find different things to do when things are going so crazy.  I'm both excited at the opportunity, and scared to death.  I'm not sure what's going to happen, or how long I'm going to have to keep going.  And I hate uncertainty.  But at the same time, I hate feeling this way SO MUCH MORE.

 

One thing that I have found that helps is realizing that I am not alone. That there are other people, both in my life and out in the world, that deal with the same things that I deal with.

 

Like this girl

 

 

And even celebrities

 



 

It helps to realize that I'm not alone. That there are people out there that deal with it too, and some have to fight for YEARS before they find a treatment that actually helps.  And some even have to go inpatient.  I'm blessed to have my friend Heather, who has dealt with it for a long time too, to talk to about it.  It makes a HUGE difference being able to talk to someone who actually personally understands what I'm talking about.  And that is such a blessing.

 

There are still going to be days where I just want to feel "normal" again.  But soon I hope to find my NEW Normal, and be happy with that.

 

Anyway, Just needed to write that.

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Thankful Tuesday

Today I am thankful for:

 

A good nights sleep. Sometimes we overrate how important a good nights sleep is, but when we actually get one - it's heaven.

 

Patient partners - My husband is so patient with me when I'm having a day like today, where I'm fighting with moodswings from hell because of the bipolar

 

Amazing daughters - Who are always up and ready to go to school, keep up with their chores, and love playing around, but inside and outside.

 

Amazing friends - who are always there for me to talk to when things just seem like they are falling apart around me.

 

A house to call our own

 

A car that gets us from point A to point B

 

Medication to help control all my lovely symptoms - from the MS, the PTSD, and the Bipolar.

 

The morning Sunrise - even when it's hiding behind a cloud, because it's the start to a brand new day full of possibilities.

 

The evening Sunset - which brings the day to an end and allows for rest and the ability to wake up in the morning to a brand new day.

 

Good music to keep me motivated when I'm trying to get things done.

 

calming music when I need to chill out

 

And the ability to speak my mind when I have too much rambling around in there.

 

That's what I'm most thankful for today.

 

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What are YOU thankful for today?

 

Leave it in the comments below!

 

LATER TATER!
LYNZ

What Bipolar means to me

For someone who doesn't have bipolar, I know it is confusing to deal with someone who DOES have it.  So I've decided to write what bipolar is like for me.

 

MANIA

 

When I'm manic, I feel like a million bucks. I have so much energy, don't eat or sleep much, and just go go go.  I feel like I could do anything, and I usually try to do everything.  I start art projects, write poetry, fill up journal after journal with so many random thoughts, and just never really stop or slow down.  I talk a billion miles an hour, usually jumping subjects every other sentence.  I am happy, and energetic, and ready to do anything. I feel happy in making other people happy and making them laugh, and most of my day is spent trying to make people laugh.  

 

I watch a billion different kinds of youtube videos about different things to do. I have pinterest boards that are made when I'm manic of ideas I have about things I want to do - and I tell myself that I WILL do them. I will do them ALL.

 

I love mania.  I think it's the best feeling in the world, and I would give anything to feel that way all the time, even though it's really not that good for me. I eat like a bird when I'm manic. I rarely sleep more than an hour or two a night. I go so fast and do so much that I push my body to it's limit, and beyond.  But I don't care. I just want to GO GO GO, and nothing in the world can convince me that it's not a good idea to do so.

 

DEPRESSION

And then the crash happens

 

I want to do nothing but sleep all day.  I rarely eat because I just don't feel like it.  Everything in the world is out to get me.  And my mood won't come up even on a bright sunshiny day.  I hide in my house, don't answer the phone, don't really talk to anybody online, and don't really do much of anything.  There are days where I lay down, and while I may WANT to sleep, I lay there and stare at the wall and think about all the things that are horribly wrong.

 

I think about things in the past that went wrong, and I am SURE they are going to happen again.  I think about all the people I've hurt in the past, and I KNOW that I'm going to hurt the people in my life now the same way.  I listen to sad music.  I draw, but it's all depressing and dark.  I write, but it's not anything you'd ever want to actually read because it's all depressed and dark.

 

I don't do anything useful.  I spend the vast majority of the time hiding from everyone because I am SURE that everyone in the world hates me and wants nothing to do with me.

 

I fight with suicidal thoughts when I'm in this state.  I think I'm worthless. I think I'm useless.  I think I'm broken, and a burden.  And I feel like the world would be better off without me in it.  I hate myself, and I just KNOW that everyone else hates me too and wants nothing to do with me.

 

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Thankfully, I have friends that semi-understand these states.  When I'm manic, I have friends that try to slow me down and make me see that I need rest and food. When I'm depressed and feel like nobody wants anything to do with me, they come over and show me that I'm wrong - that they do care, and they do want me around.  I am truly blessed by the people in my life.

 

In between the two (Depression to mania) I almost feel "normal" if you want to say that. I still fight with SERIOUSLY annoying mood swings. I fight with SERIOUS anger issues - where some days if you look at me wrong it will piss me off.  I fight with random panic attacks because I feel like I can't do it anymore.  I fight back tears.  I do my best to try to power through, but sometimes all I want to do is hide from it all because even I can't keep up with the way the moods are swinging.

 

I'm just thankful that I've started getting help from Red Rock. They have me on a bipolar med that seems to be stabilizing my mood swings.  They have me on an antidepressant that is making the depression seem like just a regular bad day instead of the end of the world. And they have me on an anti-anxiety med that keeps the panic attacks at bay.  If not for them, I wouldn't be here anymore - I'm sure of it.

 

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And that is my life with bipolar.

 

Hope it sheds some light on what bipolar is like for other people as well.

 

Hope everyone had an awesome day

SMILE, someone needs to see it

 

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Manic Monday ramblings

MANIC doesn't even begin to describe this morning.

 

Hubby and I both woke up in a bit of a grumpy mood.  His birthday was yesterday, and we didn't really get to do anything awesome for it. We did play DC Heroes with some friends, but that wasn't awesome like he wanted.  HOPEFULLY We can make it up sometime this week, cause he deserves an awesome birthday after working so damn hard for so long for us.  I hope I can figure out something to do for him that he will think is awesome. Any ideas?  Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated, lol.

 

My oldest has a party in class this morning. They studied the Titanic for the last few weeks, even learning the dances for first class and third class.  So today they are having a Titanic party, lol.  So we had to hit the store and pick up some cookies for her to take.  She picked some generic oreo cookies (got 2 packs for 2 bucks, so I can't complain).  And we picked up a couple donuts for hubby.  So we had to kinda rush around to get them to him and the girls to school, but we got it done, lol.  And that's what matters in the end right?

 

Today I'm going to try to focus on organizing some stuff around the house. My desk, the living room, and maybe the dining room. And I might even go through some of the boxes in the dining room to start getting rid of stuff. I'll just have to see what I can come up with, and how I feel as the day goes on. Cause right now I don't feel TOO bad, but I'm a little blah.  Stupid weather is kicking my butt already.  I swear, Oklahoma is bipolar too, lol.

 

For now, I'm going to share a few things that I've found that I really like, and I hope you guys enjoy it too.

 

The first is a little girl singing the national anthem. And she does an amazing job!

 

Little girl singing National Anthem

 

Next is a beautiful Song that I absolutely love

 

 

This next song is so sad, but beautiful at the same time

 

 

And another Tyler Ward song. It's called Paper Heart.

 

 

I love those songs so much.  I hope you guys enjoy them too.

 

Sorry my posts have been so short lately.  Life has gone insane again, so it's hard to find more than a few mins to post.

 

Thank you for reading though. It means a lot to me.

 

Ok, I'm out.

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Silly Sunday

First, before any silly, I wanted to share an article I found this morning on Yahoo. It's of a mother and her adopted daughter having a photo shoot of some favorite characters. And I love it. It is so cute. I think it's something that I might try with the girls this summer.  Could turn out really awesome. :)

 

Mother Daughter photo shoot

 

And now on to the silly.

 

The first video is one of a bunch of silly people doing silly things, and it made me laugh out loud, so I wanted to share. :)

 

 

And next is silly cats, hehe

 

 

And now silly dogs (and some babies too, hehe)

 

 

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Today is going to be a good day.  The girls are going to grandmas, and we've got some friends coming over to play DC Heroes. I'm SO EXCITED!  It's been FOREVER since I've been able to play anything like this, so I know it's going to be epic!

 

It'll be good to hang out with friends too.  It really helps my mood to be around people that I enjoy playing around with.  These last few weeks have been really really difficult, for a lot of reasons, and so it will be a really good thing to have a stress free day, ya know?

 

I've been doing a TON of writing - not just here on my blog but in my journal too.  Letting a lot of things out that I've been holding in for far too long.  I know it's going to be a good thing.  I've always had a problem holding things in too much, mostly because of some irrational fear that someone somewhere would judge me for it, ya know?  But I'm done doing that. It's only led to me fighting with PTSD, Depression, and anxiety for most of my life.  So now I'm going to just be open and honest with myself about what I'm thinking or feeling and stop hiding from it.

 

I've also started doing some drawing/ painting again.  I'm going to try to get an adult coloring book sometime soon too, so that will be good stress relief.  Coloring is something that I've always enjoyed, and being able to color something as intricate as these adult coloring books will be awesome! 

 

Well, I think that's all that's rattling around in my head, so I'm gonna get off here.  Hope everyone has an awesome day.  Make the most of it!

LATER TATER
LYNZ

Fierce Friday and Super Saturday

I didn't get to post my blog yesterday cause the internet was out. :(  That made my day SUPER long and hard.

 

It was fierce, to say the least

 

I don't do well alone. When I have the internet I can at least talk to people online, or play online games. But yesterday I couldn't do any of that. I was stuck with my thoughts, alone in the house, with not enough noise.  It was intense to say the least.

 

I did get to talk to one of my friends a little bit, but not nearly enough.  It sucked, and I HATE that it sucks so bad for me to not be able to talk to people. 

 

I'm just thankful for my meds, cause otherwise it would have been FAR worse!

 

I watched one of my favorite mini series - The 10th Kingdom.   If you haven't seen it, find it and watch it!  It is super long, but I LOVE it!  It helped to keep me at least a LITTLE sane, lol.

 

Not much else to report from yesterday.  Didn't do much. Didn't feel good. And shot day sucked, as always.  But hey, it could be worse, ya know?

 

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Super Saturday

 

Today is going to be a good day, rather it wants to be or not, lol.

 

My oldest has an Honor Choir performance this afternoon. I'm excited to see it. She sings so well, and I'm gonna get some videos of her while she's singing cause my hubby won't be able to come. He's got to finish up some commission painting for one of our friends.  It's all good though, I'll make sure he gets to see it. Thank goodness for the video on my tablet, hehe.

 

Then I'm going to come home and get some stuff done around the house. HOPEFULLY I will actually wake up at some point, lol.  I just can't seem to get enough sleep right now. Stupid Oklahoma weather, haha. 

 

Then at some point today I'm going to write up a history for my character for tomorrow's RPG we are playing with friends - DC Heroes.  I'm excited. My character is going to be AWESOME!  hehe. It's been FOREVER since I've been able to play an RPG like that.  Seriously, super excited.  I created a character that can turn invisible, and has some other stealthy stuffs, so it's gonna be fun.

 

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Sorry the daily posts aren't that long today. There's really not that much that I can catch in my mind right now (gotta love it when that happens).  So instead I'm going to share some stuffs from the internets that I love.

 

The first is a video of a song by an MS survivor. She had stem cell treatment, and is getting better afterwards.  And the song she wrote is beautiful. Take a look.

 



 

I love the fact she faces it the way she does. 

Such an inspiration

 

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This is another one of my favorite songs. It's by Eminem, called NOT AFRAID.  Really listen to the words.  It's beautiful

 

 

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And here is a video of 5 inspirational songs.

Something to help keep your head up to

 

 

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okie dokie, time to get off here and start getting ready to head over to her Honor Choir performance.  I know it's going to be awesome!  I'll even share some of the videos on my blog tomorrow (or maybe this evening if I remember) so you guys can see how awesome it is too!

 

Hope everyone has an awesome day!
LATER TATER
LYNZ

Throwback Thursday

I LOVE THIS SONG!  And I love this chick!  She has such a beautiful voice, and I love her songs. If you haven't yet, go give them a listen. Seriously, just do it, lol

 



 

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Throwback Thursday

 

Just gonna post some pics of me and my loves.

 

Ivy, Desiree, Ruben, and I

 

I love my family, and we've had some fun over the years.

 

The first is a pic of me from a few years ago taken by a friend of mine. I LOVE this picture of myself.  I actually feel beautiful in this pic! Thank you so much Jacqui!

 

Next is my oldest and I taken a few years ago when my family had come in to town.

 

And my youngest and I on the same day

 

This is a beautiful pic of my youngest. She was always such a little ham, and I LOVE seeing these pics of her. She is so beautiful!

 

This is one of my youngest when she was little.

Gotta love the face, lol

 

And my youngest on her first day of school this year.

Hard to believe they are getting so big!

 

And my youngest with a pair of wings her namesake sent her for Christmas one year. Doesn't she look freaking adorable?!!

 

This one is of her when we went to the zoo with family.  It was a chilly day, so she got to wear a hat I got for her. She has always been obsessed with elephants, so I had an elephant hat made for her, hehe.

 

This was her first ever day of school, and my oldest first day of 4th grade.  Still crazy to me how fast they are growing up into such beautiful little souls.

 

This was taken on Desiree's 4th birthday.

Such a little ham, with the leg pop and all, lol

 

This was taken by my sis the first year that both girls stayed with my parents for spring break.  SO BEAUTIFUL!

 

This was taken at Disney Live.

They had such a blast

Thanks to my sister in law for giving us the tickets!

 

This was Ivy's pic from the first day of school this year

SO BEAUTIFUL!

Growing way too fast!

 

This is the one taken by my sis the same year as the one of Desiree.

SO BEAUTIFUL

I love their pics in black and white

 

This was taken in Arkansas too.  But it shows her beautiful glasses

She looks so darn cute in them!

 

This is the one of Ivy at the zoo with family.

In her nice fuzzy coat

And smiling at Daddy

SO BEAUTIFUL!

 

This is from one of her assemblies at school

So cute with her little star

 

This was taken a couple years ago at an anniversary party in Arkansas

 

And this is my hubby and I the same day.

Hard to believe that was a few years ago!

Time is going way too fast!

 

We sure do have some beautiful little girls

Yeah, I know I'm biased, lol.  But still.

 

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Hope everyone had an awesome day!

I'm gonna go play some games for an hour till time to get the littles

 

LATER TATER
LYNZ