SO WHAT WEDNESDAY

SO WHAT

if they had to raise the doses on my meds today at my Red Rock appointment.  The bipolar went up to 300 mg, and the antidepressant went up to 150 mg.  And I'm still on the buspar 4 times a day, and the nightmare med.  I just hope they do their job, cause I'm tired of feeling this way.

 

SO WHAT

if my house is still cluttered. I have been hurting with the way the weather has been changing so much, so I do what I can, but I can't do it all. Thank goodness I get help.

 

SO WHAT

if the car freaks me out when it's raining.  I've never been good with driving in the rain, and after the car accident I had a few years ago it's even worse. I'm just thankful for my meds cause otherwise I'd never drive in it, lol.

 

SO WHAT

if my kids are home from school sick today.  My poor babies have been sick to their stomachs all morning, and it made Ivy not have her appointment cause she had to leave twice to throw up. :(  HOPEFULLY a good day of rest will help them feel better.

 

SO WHAT

if I'm more nervous about the chance at hubby getting a new job than I should be, lol. It's going to be a HUGE change. But it's going to be awesome! I know it's a job that hubby REALLY wants, and the fact he got a call this morning telling him to go ahead and put in his notice makes me SUPER happy!

 

SO WHAT

if all I feel like doing today (now that all the stuff from this morning is over) is taking a good long nap.  I is exhausted!  Plan on doing an early dinner and hitting the hay early!  Actually, I think I'm going to have my husband cook dinner. He already said he would, lol.  Thank goodness, cause I'm hurting like a witch, and need a nap, lol.

 

SO WHAT

if I rely on too many people to help me through these dark times I've been having.  They say treatment takes an army sometimes, and I certainly have mine. Thank you SOO MUCH James, Heather, and Ruben. You guys are what's helping to keep me alive, and that means so very much to me!

 

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Love these videos, lol.  Got Talent auditions.  So funny, and so good.  I LOVE these!

 



 

and another video of top got talent auditions

 

 

I love the dancers at the end. SO BEAUTIFUL!

 

 

Top 30 dance songs.  How many of these do you love?

 

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This morning I had my Red Rock appointment.  I met with the med doctor and talked about all the things that have been going on with me - The depression, the suicidal thoughts, the anger day I had a couple days ago, the moods swinging like crazy - and he upped my Bipolar med so I can get a good nights sleep and hopefully keep the mood swings in check, and he upped the antidepressant so that I won't have to feel all the darkness anymore. HOPEFULLY they all work the way they are supposed to, cause I am so sick and tired of feeling like this.  I know I can feel better, and it will be fantastic to actually feel "Normal" for a while, ya know?  I just hope we can figure it out cause I really don't want to have to end up inpatient, ya know?

 

Hubby got a phone call this morning, which is awesome, from a job that he REALLY wants!  And the dude on the other end told him to go ahead and put in his 2 weeks - SO YAY!  It will be a HUGE change, but I know it will be a GREAT change.  Ya know? He's been worn so thin at his current job that it will be good for him to do something different.  I know he will enjoy it a hell of a lot more, and he will be making GREAT money compared to his current job.

 

Both girls are home sick today. They both woke up feeling sick to their stomachs, so we are staying around the house this afternoon and eating soup and resting.  I know we can all use a day like that on occasion.  I hate that they are sick, but we are doing what we can to help it so they will feel better tomorrow.

 

Anyway, that's all I've got for today.

 

Hope everyone had an awesome day
LATER TATER
LYNZ