I have so much that I've got behind my smile. So many stories that you'd never be able to understand. I'm just SO thankful for the friends and family that have been there for me through everything that is going on. I know I can be difficult sometimes. I know I can push your buttons and try to push you away, but you've always been there for me, and that makes me SO happy that I can't even accurately put it into words. It seriously means the world to me.
Today I am thankful for patience and understanding, both from family and friends, and from those involved in my healthcare.
My family and friends understand that sometimes I'm going to be difficult, that I'm going to have difficult days, and that difficult things may happen, but they are always happy to reach out and help me up when I feel like just curling up and staying where I am. They have been there for me through these last few months, and all the ups and downs that have been involved, and that is HUGE to me!
And my healthcare team is amazing. My neurologist who sees me for free and goes out of her way to make me feel comfortable and well informed about my disease. It's hard sometimes to come to terms with what is going on inside my own body that it's peaceful to hear her reassure me. And Red Rock, and my team there, who has been there for me through all the ups and downs of the last few months. Without them, I'm not sure where I'd be right now. I am thankful for Dr Bayne for reassuring me that we will work on my meds, and for Katlyn for being there for me when I was having such a hard time the other day. They have both been amazing support, and I am so thankful for them! AND I am SUPER thankful that I get seen for free out there, cause I'm not sure I'd be able to pay for help at all, and that helps me more than I could ever explain.
I'm thankful that I have an appointment out there on the 13th. I know we need to tweak my meds more, cause right now they just aren't working well enough. HOPEFULLY we can get it figured out, and SOON, cause I'm tired of feeling like this all the time. And the last few days have taken a HUGE toll on my mental state. I'm not quite as bad as I was 6 months ago, when I was ready to kill myself. But I feel fragile, and broken, and just having a hard time coming to terms with everything. I still know we will be better off after all this, but it's just really hard to deal with in the moment. Does that make sense?
I know that everything isn't perfect for the vast majority of people, and I just want you all to know that I'm thinking about you too. I pray/ send well wishes/ happy thoughts/ etc out to all of you every single day. And I am so thankful to those who do the same for me. It means a lot that people who don't even really know me personally take such an interest. So thank you, so very very much!
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I am going to be participating in the Walk MS that is happening in the OKC metro. I have a fundraising page, so if you can help AT ALL, please do. Even $5 would be HUGE in the effort to find a cure for this disease.
And if you can't donate, if you could share on your facebook/ twitter page that would be a huge help too. Anything means the world to me! So thank you all ahead of time for whatever it is you can do.
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I've become obsessed with this young lady. Bea Miller. She is an amazing talent, and I'm so glad that she's able to do something with her amazing voice!
Seriously, love her!
And this little girl, in the video above, is such an inspiration. She doesn't let her disability run her life, and that's something that I struggle with on an almost daily basis.
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I found a few things that I REALLY want when we can afford them.
The first is the Gallifrey necklace
I think it is SO pretty! Heck, I'd wear any of them, but that's the one I want the most. Seriously awesome! Maybe someday, lol.
The next is a t-shirt that made me crack up, but it is SO true!
And next is another t-shirt I LOVE so much!
Isn't it adorable? I want SO BAD!
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Sorry this post got a little rambly. I've just had a TON in my head, and letting it just flow as it did seems to have helped. I hope you don't think it's boring or anything, lol.
I hope everyone has/ had an awesome day!
Share what YOU are thankful for in the comments below!
LATER TATER
LYNZ
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