SO WHAT WEDNESDAY

I'm going to start this post off with something that isn't so what Wednesday. It's something that I feel very strongly about, because it's something I've done my whole life, and that is hiding what's really going on in our lives.  EVERYONE we know is going through some kind of struggle. Some are awesome at showing it and asking for help, and others, like me, tend to hide it and put on a pretty face for the world.  And that can be SO BAD because holding them in and hiding them is what led to me being so suicidal and depressed all those months ago.

 

I've grown so much since then, and I can actually talk about things now.  I can show the world that I am not ok, and be ok with that.  I can admit that I need help, even when that's the last thing in the world I want to ask for, because in my mind I should be stronger and able to deal with them on my own.  But I can't, and I know that now.

 

 

Ok, enough of that

ONWARD

 

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SO WHAT if I fell yesterday. I stepped in a hole and twisted my ankle, and it hurts like hell today. It wasn't anything I could have prevented. It just happened, and I have to be ok with that.

 

SO WHAT if I feel raw and emotional today. The last few days have been hard as hell to me.  I still know we will be better after this, but it's still really hard to do in the moment

 

SO WHAT if my girls are crazy. They are my kids after all, lol.  I'm just so grateful that they are here for me, cause I love those little girls more than life itself.

 

SO WHAT if these storms are kicking my butt. They always have, and now with the MS it's even worse.

 

SO WHAT if my mind is going a billion miles an hour.  I don't have to catch all the thoughts running around in there. I only have to catch the ones that matter and talk about them.

 

SO WHAT if I don't want to do a damn thing right now.  Being so emotional and raw has made me exhausted physically too

 

SO WHAT if my house isn't spotless and I haven't finished unpacking and getting rid of stuff.  There has been so much going on that to expect that of myself would just be beyond overwhelming.  It will get done when it gets done.

 

SO WHAT if I expect too much of myself.  I've always been that way, and I don't see that changing anytime soon.  At least I've come to terms with the fact that I CAN'T do it all (even though I EXPECT myself to, ya know?)

 

That's MY SO WHAT Wednesday

What are YOUR SO WHAT'S today?

Share in the comments below

 

For now, it's time to go get hubby.

LATER TATER
LYNZ