awarness Sunday

Today I am posting about something that needs to be talked about. Something that so many run away from because they don't understand it, and therefore fear it.

 

It is Depression.  It is Suicide.  It is the darkest place you can imagine, and it's something that you can't fight alone.

 

7 months ago I was suicidal.  I wanted to die. I felt broken, and like a burden, and like it was making everyone elses life worse by having me in it.  I thought the world would be better off if I wasn't here anymore.  I fought with the feelings, and had even worked out the plan on how I was going to take my own life. I was ready to go, and I was strangly at peace with that decision.

 

Thankfully my friends KNEW something was up. One even came over and talked me down, physically fighting me for the things I was going to use.  He showed me that he cared, when I thought that nobody should.  My husband has been amazing support since then - since I was able to actually tell him how I was feeling and what was going on.  My daughters have been the light of my life, and show me every single day that I am NOT broken - I am MOM, and that's HUGE!

 

Somewhere in the world, someone takes their own life ever 30 seconds.

 

Think about that for a minute.

 

That's 2 people a minute, 120 people an hour, and 2880 people a day!

That is 1,051,200 a year!

 

That is a HUGE number.  And a lot of it is because those people feeling that way feel alone. They feel like they have nobody to talk to, and nobody who will take the time to understand and help.  Trust me, I've been there.  Thankfully I've made it out the other side.  Thankfully I am still getting help. Red Rock has been HUGE in my recovery.  I get the medicine I need, and the therapy too.  It makes such a difference in my life, because I finally can see all the people in my life who truly care.  That's something I was afraid of for the longest time.  I didn't think anybody really truly cared.  I thought they were just saying it because they didn't want to be responsible for anything that I might do.

 

I hope this opens your eyes.  I hope you can be there for anybody in your life that may be dealing with severe depression.  Believe me, sometimes all they need is a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen. You don't have to fix them. You don't have to offer suggestions.  You just have to be there.  You just have to show them that you care, in whatever way you can.

 

Thank you So much to those in my life who have shown me that.  Ruben, Heather, and James to name a few.  It means the world to me that you are there for me!  Never forget that!

 

And know I am here for you too, if you ever need me.

 

I hope this opens your eyes.

 

And I hope you had an awesome day

LATER TATER
LYNZ